Category: Waakiye

  • Adjusting until a version of myself erodes…!

    Adjusting until a version of myself erodes…!

    A submissive mother,
    A intractable father.

    Often were the fights,
    More often they were physical…


    A bruise here,
    A cut there,
    The eyes puffy from crying,
    from under them peeked a reddish-blue bruise,
    haphazardly done, uneven cover-up it seemed…


    But,

    A question remained on my mind…!?


    How did they end up sharing the same bed each night…?


    Writer’s note

    Later, he would end up having his way and being physical with her—
    After that him profusely crying,
    clinging to her bare body,
    like a newborn,
    rubbing his face in her chest,
    And,
    she held him in close,
    until he felt asleep…




    3rd person’s pov

    This became a regular happening,
    he would come home angry—
    angry on someone,
    or something that didn’t went his way
    and,
    in a fit of rage,
    A hand would be raised,
    A loud smack would resonate within these walls-
    Sobbing would be heard later,
    along with them tears would start to flow,
    in a single sweep he would hit her once again,
    telling her to shut up,
    and bring him food…


    Taking the support of the wall,
    or a drawer she would slowly get up,
    but,
    before she could stand on her feet,
    he would get up once again,
    grab her by her shoulder,
    pressing his thumb firm into her joint,
    turning her low-pitched sobs,
    into silent screams with tears,
    due to the extreme amount of pain,
    after that he would throw her,
    into the direction of the kitchen,
    where she would go and heat food for him…


    If it was a little cold or too hot,
    he would throw the chair back,
    yelling at her yet again,
    and those tears would start to roll again,
    sometimes he would throw the plate in her direction,
    not worrying if it were to hit her,
    her arm,
    her face,
    her eyes,
    no matter where it went;


    Often the neighbors heard her—
    her cries of help;


    Initially people would wake up,

    Bang our door late at night, Come to her rescue,

    But now,

    it was such a common happening,
    that they wouldn’t even bother to get up,
    much rather go out and look outside…!


    Every other day screams would be heard,
    Her sobbing and His screaming—

    Terror roamed the house,
    and none was there to stop it,
    stop any of it;


    As soon as he was done eating,
    he would go into the bathroom,
    clean himself up,
    and sit on his side of the bed—


    Scrolling his phone until a faint shadow of her entered the room for a brief moment and then went into the bathroom;


    He would curiously watch her from the side of his eye going into the bathroom,
    then she’d come out with a bucket of clothes,
    which she would take to the terrace to hang them on the ropes that were connected to poles on either side of the rooftop…


    Returning to their room,
    she knew,
    what she would have to do,
    to ease the pain that he had,
    even if she wasn’t to blame at all,
    not even a little bit…;


    On coming down and locking the main entry door,
    then their bedroom door;


    It was a big room,
    but not a spacious one,
    on one wall was a TV,
    in front of it,
    was the bed,

    There was a cabinet that has their essentials, Another cabinet sat in that spacious room that made it even more cramped,

    In it were bottles filled to the brim with color transparent and gold like…!
    Surrounded it was by walls colored in blue,
    A pale blue color,
    flakes of which were peeling off and felling on the floor;


    An effort she made each day to clean them,
    but another scream he roared,
    not to use the broom at night,
    as he snatched it from her hand and told her to get ready soon…


    In a fit of paralyzing fear,
    she hurriedly picked it up,
    and kept it in the corner of the room,
    away from his sight as he found it very unappealing—

    Before coming to bed,
    she hit the light switch off,
    and sat on her side of the bed—

    Before laying down,
    her hand reached up the drawer,
    and from it came a box,
    which had various creams and ointments—


    She stared at the box for a moment,
    because it had a mirror glued on it,
    seeing her bruised up face—
    Remembering a smile that was once her identity,
    Now, none of it was left,
    not even an essence of it,
    as she opened the box—


    Taking out Vaseline for her hands,
    Boroline for her cracked heels,
    and some other over the counter medicine for the bruises,
    which she had an abundance of,
    after a good 15 minute she was ready to lay down,
    but,
    her problems were far from over…


    As soon as she laid down,
    his tantrums started,
    rolling on his side of the bed,
    grunting,
    crushing his teeth,
    all sorts of irritable behaviors,
    But,
    she knew what was coming,
    after 10-15 minutes,
    when all went silent,
    you could hear him panting,
    and after that,
    those short breaths,
    turned into little sobs,
    knowing this was a usual behavior,
    his usual behavior,
    she didn’t instigate him for a couple of minutes…


    After 15-20 minutes passed,
    she held out her hand,
    and placed it on his shoulder,
    knowing,
    he won’t subside until it happens,
    and,
    because she doesn’t want to get hit yet again,
    she starts something she doesn’t like even a single bit of…


    As she pulls herself towards him,
    grabbing his back,
    in an effort to comfort him,
    after being a literal punching bag to him—


    He wanted to be comforted,
    He wanted closure—


    “Look at the audacity,
    look at the situation life put me in…!” She though in her mind…


    First I have to beg for mercy,
    and then please the same person;


    He treats me like a piece of meat,
    uses and then throws me away,
    only to torture me again,
    the next day,


    “Why,
    Why do i have to submit to him…?!

    I thought…


    Maybe, being from a poor background is the cause—


    I don’t have people—
    my people backing me


    I was told to adjust,
    and adjust some more,
    until his comfort was met,
    and mine was ruined till there was none left of it…!


    (The rest will be continued tomorrow…)

    Cheers 🥂

    Love Waakiye 🤍

  • Doing away with dual meaning and walking away from people…!

    Doing away with dual meaning and walking away from people…!

    If you could permanently ban a word from general usage, which one would it be? Why?

    Hey…

    I hope all of you are doing well…!

    Another already answered prompt forcing me to cut short my answer and get into one of my saved posts or getting into my notes app to find something worthy of your time…!

    Well an answer for the prompt would be something like this…!

    I wouldn’t necessarily ban a word because I’m not in a position to do that,

    But,

    what I’d like to happen is to do away with the dual meaning of words that happen after another generation picks it up…!

    For example the word

    Cooked,

    Meant that the “food was ready” but these days it means something else entirely…!

    These days in slang it means “to be in big trouble or exhausted”

    This duality has ruined a lot of words like


    Slay

    Glaze

    Bet

    Tea


    The list goes on and on…!

    I would do away with this duality because it’s hard for me to search for the meaning behind the slangs all the time…!



    One of my posts underneath

    You only see what you want!

    Don’t you…?

    No

    Sometimes,

    They only show what they want to be seen as,
    and they’re so good at it,
    you come to know this later…!


    They aren’t even a speck of what they act,
    like their behaviour and their actions can be the polar opposite of what they are with someone else…


    Glad I came and distanced myself,
    or rather,
    I’m glad things came up and brought distance between us…


    Now that I sit back and see,
    I cannot agree more with those pointing fingers at you because of who you are,
    rather,
    what sort of a person you are…


    I’m glad and breathe in peace,
    That,
    There won’t be any fingers pointed at me,
    for the fact that I am still in contact with you…!


    (P.s.
    I might have been in contact with you once,
    but,
    all of our connections are long gone,

    And I have not a single speck of regret for that…!)


    Cheers 🥂

    Love Waakiye 🤍

  • Planning my next few months…!

    Planning my next few months…!

    What is the biggest challenge you will face in the next six months?

    Hey…!

    I hope all of you are doing well…!

    The last nights prompt took away a lot of things that I wanted to say today…!

    🙈

    But, after a long time a prompt has come in that I haven’t answered and this has given me some ideas…!

    And a break from me posting my unusual stuff that I write…!

    Coming back to the prompt

    Biggest challenge that I will face in the next six months

    It’s a bit crazy how the world moves, because up until beginning of the year 2026;

    I didn’t have any concrete plans, they were still to lay low, work hard in the shadows and come back out with more power in a year or two…!

    Making this year of struggles and winning some personal battles with myself and things that hold me back…!

    Until, the marriage of my sister was decided in the month of April…!

    For which everything has sprung into action and there are things happening that are done by me and taken into account to guide anyone who comes to me in the near future for help on how to manage or do a programme like this one…!

    There will be many things that will happen and they will change my viewpoint on now to view people, their behavior and also how those who will sit in our blind spots and fill the ears of our relatives and question how we were able to afford these things…!

    Everything will happen…!

    Including us missing the presence of our father as all of this happens…!🥲

    A huge lump that all of us carry within our hearts and can never ever seem to fill…!

    Otherwise it’s all good and future will be the witness to all that’s yet to come…!

    Cheers 🥂

    Love Waakiye 🤍

  • Eyes of children who never forget…!

    Eyes of children who never forget…!

    What bores you?

    Hey…!

    I hope all of you are doing well…!

    I don’t know how to tell you this but being consistent on this app has made me come to terms with the fact that most of the prompts are recycled…!

    This prompt was answered by me back in 2025 somewhere in the month of February…!

    I really got bored of the thing that I have to recycle,

    Well not recycle but sell you the same prompt yet again which I think hurts my creative front because of a promise I made to myself before I began writing…!

    So instead of the prompt you get one of my write ups today too,

    But it will be disguised in the form of prompt to give all of this a push that it definitely needs…!!!




    Eyes of children who never forget…


    There linger some feelings,
    Some emotions unspoken of;


    Some words with-held,
    Not brought to these lips,
    To keep those dear to us near…

    Whom we considered our own,
    Once pure,
    Now they won’t stay with us,
    Those known faces became unknown…

    They call our eyes droopy,
    A face that seems off,
    Hasn’t witnessed a shread of happiness in years,
    Dark circles that grow day by day,
    And the light of the eyes that diminishes as each day pass…!

    The eyes,
    Those eyes never forget…

    Unkept hair,
    A bunch of facial hair that grows haphazardly;
    Those dead-fish eyes that scare everyone,
    And staring into them feels like a slipping slope;


    Once you fell into them—surrounded by darkness you feel,
    With no clue what hurt them or continues to,
    they walk away from you without a care in this world…

    A sense of relief is seen in them when they indulge in their vice,
    A line of pure white,
    A pill with a happy face,
    A tab or two,
    Or a bottle that’s waiting to be emptied;

    When the white of the eyes turn red,
    Bloodshot—
    Only then,
    In a sense of euphoria,
    A sliver of smile comes on the face…

    On rare occasions we wish,
    These vices weren’t the only thing that made us smile,
    Made us feel— More human,

    But;


    As the buzz wears off,
    We are back to our self,
    Our usual miserable selves…


    With those eyes,
    We stare,
    With a sense that tries to find a meaning in everything;

    A thought comes to our mind,
    Here we are—
    “Here we are still alive…”

    Those are the eyes of children who never forget…



    Cheers 🥂

    Love Waakiye 🤍

  • A question about prompts and thoughts I get when I look up towards the sky…

    A question about prompts and thoughts I get when I look up towards the sky…



    Another already answered prompt telling me to cherry pick one of my draft posts…!


    I’d like to ask this to you,

    Do your opinions on things change within a single year or it takes a bigger/smaller span than that…?

    Real question of which I’d like a real answer…!



    When I look towards the sky…

    I’d like to talk to G0d,
    But the sky’s empty.

    I’d tell him how they fear his name during the day,
    When the sun’s up,
    Just above their heads,
    But as soon as it sets,
    They come out of their veils of fear and shyness..


    They skilfully remove their masks,
    And show their real faces,
    Those which can’t be faced without covering one’s eyes,
    Or having to spit something out of your mouth like when you taste something distasteful…


    These veils,
    Cover the horrors they show to their victims,
    By lacing someone’s drink,
    Or abduct them up as they’re returning home to their safe haven—

    But no,
    They had some other plans on their minds…


    As soon as they are done with the bodies alive or not that they caught,
    They throw them out,
    Dispose of them as waste and leave them to rot,
    Or die as a consequence of their actions…


    The very next morning,
    They pick their masks and wear them;


    To cover themselves up in a veil of deceit—

    A material that makes them immune to the normal eye,
    But—

    On seeing within,
    Deep within their cold, soulless eyes,
    As they sing praises of almighty’s name,
    Or go to place of worship above and beyond,
    Only to show their humble nature—

    A game of deceit they play with him;


    He who knows all about them,
    And what they do when they think they’re not being watched,
    But—

    As soon as the sun sets,
    The real version of them pops out…


    I’d talk to G0d,
    And tell him about his creations,
    But,
    When I look up,
    The sky is empty—


    The sky is all empty, because we buried his concept and anything that relates to him when we first decided to lift our veils…


    Cheers 🥂

    Love Waakiye 🤍

  • Real life problems here in India…!?

    Real life problems here in India…!?

    Another day of already answered prompts telling me to go into my partially written saved posts…!

    For those who don’t believe here’s the proof that I can provide you…!

    A screenshot with all the prompts answered…!

    If you stay with me, you will be safe…!

    These are the exact words that left his mouth when I told him that I didn’t want to go with him…!


    Set aback I was, before I could say anything as his words once again filled the room…!


    “There are many who are ill mannered who will tease you, belittle you, call you names, maybe touch you inappropriately and what will you do then…?

    Who will you call out to…?

    Who will you look back to for help…?

    Will you cry out for help…?”


    Don’t you think it will be a terrifying experience…?

    And you won’t be able to move or even make a cry of help when something bad happens…!


    You don’t even call it out when you’re surrounded by people you call your own, because you think they’d think of you in the wrong way…!


    And you think you can go alone safely there without me…?



    His words cut deep,

    But they were true, I should have left early and made all of the necessary arrangements before I planned to travel there, even if it were to travel all alone…!


    I know this seems weird, A lot of dependence on a person, But what if I told you it was the absolute truth for me…?


    Last week another girl just like me was picked up by goons as she was going back home from school and she was assaulted and later left on the side of the road(literally to die);

    Until a passer-by recognized her and shouted to attract more people;


    The already distressed parents ran as they weren’t able to lodge a FIR,

    Denied were their basic rights just because the presiding officer assumed that she must have ran away from home due to some tension or stress from her parents…!

    They also brought them shame by telling them to their face and all those around them that,

    She must have ran away from them with her boyfriend and they must have planned to marry each other…!


    As soon as they reached along with other police officers after an already pre decided sum was received by them in a form of bribe and they were looking to pay a part of it to the family to settle the matter;


    They said girl was still alive and confessed the name of the people that were in that car because they belonged to the same town;

    And they loaded her up in their police van instead of an ambulance and drove off towards the hospital…!

    The parents of the girl stood there and after a while they shook themselves to consciousness and found what had happened…!


    They paddled their way to the hospital but their daughter was declared brought dead;

    The parents also died as soon as they heard the news…!


    As the hospital staff decided to change her to remove all of the blood soaked clothes,

    They began the investigation and found conclusive evidence that it was infact a sexual assault and this would;

    Should be a criminal activity;


    But those so called enforcers of justice came empty handed when she was laden into the police jeep and gave up on the drive towards the hospital,

    Or,

    She was deliberately killed on the way to not get a witness testimony…!


    The words still ringing in my mind,

    If you stay with me, you will be safe..!


    Would I ever be safe, until this mentality stays that I need someone to feel safe

    And when I am alone I will—

    I should feel unsafe…


    Only when there’s someone around me I’ll feel safe…!


    Isn’t this mentality broken enough to push women back into the place they worked so hard to crawl out of…!


    Cheers 🥂

    Love Waakiye 🤍

  • Favourite candies and coming to terms with life…!

    Favourite candies and coming to terms with life…!

    What’s your favorite candy?

    Hey…

    I hope all of you are doing well…!

    It’s a Sunday and I hope you wake up well rested today and this prompt finds you in the best of your health…!

    There is a lot that went on my mind yesterday and no matter how hard I tried I wasn’t able to put my 100% focus at work, all I could was remember Milky(May his soul rest in peace) and because of that I woke up and had another dream today which I wrote in my notes app…!

    Maybe some of the dreams come to me when I am under different types of stresses and I’m incapable to process them but, I did talk to myself about that and know that the circle of life works this way only,


    Maybe we work through our lives everyday to prepare ourselves for the new life that exists after this one ceases…!?


    Maybe all of this is a test and prepares us and makes us strong enough to look at death in the face and embrace it like it’s someone/something that we knew all along…!

    (Khair…)

    Too much talks about the cease of existence makes me sound a bit too optimistic about it, because some think of life as a trap and the release from it to be the true reality…!

    Imagine returning to a place where you stay with all the souls on a standby and your place stays empty for a while; (A while being 70-80 years for some…)

    And when you return to your original home you are content and happy to be with those who have stayed with you for an eternity…!


    Returning to the prompt

    What’s your favourite candy…?

    This couldn’t have come at a right time because a lot of the things are going on in these days the first week of February leading to the Valentine’s Day..!

    Well there is a vast difference between sugar candy and chocolate confectionery and let me draw this line that we are strictly talking about candy(sugar candy) only…!

    Because all of us remember eating eclairs and melody all through our childhood and that is something that I love too…!

    Melody that we all love and still can’t answer the question (Melody inti chocolaty kyon hai…?)
    I hope all of you remember eating this as you got it as a gift from birthday boy or girl during your schooling years…!

    Yes,

    These two would take the spot for me as one of the most favourite candies that I love…!

    And a lot of memories are attached to these two too…!

    Cheers 🥂

    Love Waakiye 🤍

  • Tragic news and a break from the prompt…

    Tragic news and a break from the prompt…

    Do you need a break? From what?

    Hey…

    I hope all of you are doing well…!

    Well I thought so much about this prompt on my morning walk with my sister, but all of it came to a halt—

    As we feed the street dogs their breakfast, a mix of dog food and milk and some other things in between..!

    One of the dogs in excitement jumped from the fourth floor apartment complex’s terrace;

    As I was away from her she called me on my phone and rushed towards her, and on reaching a car took the white street dog which we brought up with our own hands as their mother died infront of us an year and a half back;

    I cannot think anything straight today…

    I don’t know what happens ahead but my sister says that Milky (name of the injured dog) was shallow breathing in-front of her and his eyes were starting to dry up…!


    And I just got the news he is no more with us…!


    Ooh it hurts so much when someone who cannot speak and gives us love goes away like this..!

    On top of that it is my sister’s birthday today and this is how the news came to us…!

    And we got the news that they have taken to cremate him;

    Oh it feels too hard on the mind and soul to continue anything anymore,

    But the sweet embrace of death is something that all soul has to taste once in their life…!

    May his soul rest in peace and have a better path in their next life…!

    Love Waakiye 🤍

    I cannot share anything else with you instead of this image, a representation of the almighty and in front of it our lifeless baby…

    May his journey ahead be better than what it was in this one…!

    😔

  • An ideal day and some exciting news…!

    An ideal day and some exciting news…!

    Describe your most ideal day from beginning to end.

    Hey…

    I hope all of you are doing well…!

    Another cool morning its said to be 10 degree Celsius; waking up at 7:14 with an alarm that I set for 7 AM made me realise I felt colder than it should…!

    As I went to use the bathroom and brush my teeth after putting my phones on charging;

    I thought about today’s prompt, what it would be and how would I write all about it…!

    And on seeing this prompt at 7:33 it felt like it’s been ages since I’ve lived one of the ideal days…!

    (Khair)

    There’s something I want to share with you, my sister’s friend bought a new car and she came to our home last night to show us the car and we were overjoyed when we saw her car and I quickly ordered a few chocolates as a gift from blink-it it was a Ferrero Rocher and a Cadbury one; I ordered a air freshner for her car too but that guy couldn’t reach me because his two wheeler’s engine seized like 10 minutes away from me so he made me cancel the order…!

    It is a Kia Sonet and it’s white in color…!

    We are more happy for her because she grew up infront of us and now she’s become a person who practices law under a senior lawyer and works hard to make everyone around her happy…!

    A noble soul she is…!

    Coming back to the prompt

    An ideal day for me

    It would be to wake up well rested at 7 am…!

    And after waking up it would be great to get a nice walk or a workout in that lasts maybe forty five minutes to an hour that keeps me energetic throughout the day…!

    Then it would be writing one of these prompts which takes around an hour and a half at max and then it would be great to go to work and everything happens according to a predicted schedule and all the outcomes that were thought were reached and the work day ended at 5 maybe 5:30 or last 6 in the evening nothing more than that…!

    After reaching home some plans were already made and I reached there on time and me and my friends hung out, got some snacks and then reached home safely…!

    At home I had my mom and my sister waiting for me and I had a good dinner with them, maybe outside maybe at home and then we took a walk outside and then hit the bed…!

    A day well spent it would’ve been to acknowledge all those who made me who I am today and their constant unwavering support which pushed me into the direction which i love today…!

    An ideal day it would be…!

    Cheers 🥂

    Love Waakiye 🤍

  • Three major life events and a morning walk partner…!

    Three major life events and a morning walk partner…!

    How do significant life events or the passage of time influence your perspective on life?

    Hey…

    I hope all of you are doing well…!

    A cool Wednesday morning it is and I woke up by the air purifier hitting my face with cold air that it blew at my face, the time was 7:56 as that’s the time I saw on my phone and watching the 71% battery on it made me breathe a sigh of relief…!

    And I went for a morning walk with my dog and it was amazing;

    There are so many things that we see, giving us perspective on life too, as we see people from walks of life, making it an interesting thing to observe too…!

    And, now I have to clean my room as I’ve returned home at 8:58 hours…!

    But,

    The morning walks makes it better as a fresh perspective is taken in the morning and it helps me think about things in a different way than what I usually am sitting within these four walls…!

    Coming back to the prompt

    Life events and its influence on our lives

    This topic came on the right time,

    As many things are happening around me as life unfolds infront of me…

    A marriage

    It usually looks like two people getting together just to live together and have a kid in the near future but that’s the perspective from the outside;

    But, when looked at from the vision of the couple- the man, the woman or whoever is your significant other is—

    It gives you a whole different perspective as they aren’t just tying knots, they are marrying each other and it involves understanding the nature and the quirks that your partner has and adapting to things they don’t like and providing them with love and care that they need…!

    Well this isn’t understood by someone who isn’t married or doesn’t plan to get married anytime soon and it’s their choice…!

    You get to understand a person in real time and unfurl them in a way that gives you understanding who they are and why is it the way they are…!

    People just call it marriage and that’s what their mind lacks to think and believe…!

    Childbirth

    One of the most crucial thing- that welcomes parenthood and shapes you in a way when the peaceful nights turn sleepless as the newly born child needs attention and your support…

    It’s very tricky in the first place as not all of the conceptions end up in having a child and there are many helpless parents that are working hard to have a child of their own; and when things don’t work out adoption becomes an option…!

    And this continuous tries to have one of your own pulls the love out of intimacy..!

    Yes you might not have heard that but tracking your ovulation days and being ready on a specific day/(s) kills the spontaneity and turns it stressful and a task that requires accomplishment instead of being fun and full of joy…!

    (If you know this I’m sorry for you and I hope you have a child of your own someday…!)

    And viewing this from the outside it feels like something you can’t care about,

    But when you are in the shoes of such a person you come to know the real meaning of having a child and when you’re blessed with one, it feels like the almighty rewarded you with something of a miracle themselves..!

    Death

    Yes, one of the things that makes us who we are and prepare us for the world beyond this one, the sweet embrace of death,

    Something that all of us have in common that we have to taste it once and we will never know when it will be our turn, but the fact that this is the common thing that all of us share and have kept on sharing and will do until our end…!

    It breaks a person if it’s close to you, your S/o, your father ,mother, brother or sister…!

    It hurts to a such a degree that sometimes the pain and suffering becomes unbearable and the person takes their own life as it becomes unbearable to live a life without them…!

    I’ve seen people do that and leave behind kids that were underage, some were working;

    It wasn’t something of a Sui(ide but the loss becomes unimaginable and the person gives up on living their lives and then something happens; their car swerved out of control, they fell and the blood loss was too much—

    “They cherished each other so much that they couldn’t live without each other” that’s what they say after it happens;

    But, the love that they had for each other couldn’t be shaken or taken apart…!

    (Khair)

    The life and its perspectives haunt us and make us think about who we are and what we live for;

    It might feel like it was a long read but it was necessary and worthy of each word as anytime any one of the above happens it becomes a life altering experience and changes us and our core…!

    Cheers 🥂(to a long read and a new perspective)

    Love Waakiye 🤍