Waakiye

Tag: betterfuture

  • A Positive change

    Daily writing prompt
    Describe one positive change you have made in your life.
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    A beautiful vine that I caught on the morning walk

    There’s no love in the monotonous life that I live,
    I woke up early and scrolled some,
    go out for a walk,
    jot down some ideas,
    return home and get ready for work,
    leave in a hurried way and return around 9 PM sometimes 10…
    With zero will left to live,
    I had to get addicted to something…


    But the fact that I was tired daily and used something to cope with stress of the life,
    It was a mess,
    a literal one,
    within a span of few years i was addicted…

    I was drinking heavily,
    the cup was the only thing I used to talk to late night,
    and tbh it was soothing,
    I used to drink and have food and then go to my peaceful sleep….

    But,
    that came with a price,
    within a few weeks the same quantity didn’t satiate me,
    it began with a single additional drink,
    and then it went to 4-5 heavy drinks each night,
    and with that came nicotine and heavy addiction to caffeine to kill the buzz from last night…

    Within a span of few months,
    I couldn’t live without the thought of not having something to drink,
    or something to smoke…

    So,

    I began cold turkeying all of it,
    there were failures one too many,
    some were deliberate,
    others were accidental,
    like there’s a meetup of friends so we chose to buy a few bottles and then we poured and drank until there were no more….

    So,
    one day,
    just trying to give up,
    and losing the battle,
    i saw,
    my mom staring at me,
    “How much more will you drink…?”
    not noticing that i just returned home and they used to lock their doors when i began drinking,
    they’d only come out after I was in and out (slipping) to tell me the food was getting cold…

    So,
    just one day,
    returning home,
    not drinking,
    and having dinner with them,
    and watching their faces light up,
    like a child finding a lost toy,
    they began the setting the table and food…

    I didn’t know they were having their food all alone in their rooms,
    and it hit me like a truck,
    so from that day onwards,
    I’ve given up drinking and smoking altogether….

    Just to see these happy faces,
    my happy faces…

    (THIS SOBER LIFE ISN’T FOR ALL,
    THERE ARE DAYS WHEN I JUST LOOK AT MY CABINET AND THINK ABOUT TAKING A SWIG,
    BUT,
    ITS MORE THAN TRUST AT THIS POINT OF TIME;
    ITS ABOUT THE FIGHT THAT BEGAN FROM WITHIN,
    TAKING THE FORM OF AN EXTERNAL SOURCE TO KEEP IT GOING…)

    From the glass of water that i have in my hand;

    A virtual cheer 🥂

  • An experience

    A fortunate night

    What experiences in life helped you grow the most?

    There are many things that have helped me, in a way to shape the being that I am today…

    I’ve had my trust betrayed by those whom I considered mine, actually too close to me and when I caught them in the act, they brushed it off like there wasn’t something to begin with, even after all of the chaos, they came back to me and told me that what they said was in the heat of the moment and they didn’t mean it..

    But I told them anger brought out what they really thought about me and my place in their life…

    So slowly I drifted away from their lives…

    Occasionally I see them from afar,

    And when our eyes meet,

    There’s a sense of consideration that I see in them,

    But,

    That phase has long gone so we cross our paths like we are strangers while still acknowledging our past,

    And,

    We walk on our own paths,

    Away from each other…

    (Wishing nothing…!)

    Cheers 🥂

    This one belongs to the mars curiosity rover…

  • HIS WORLD THROUGH HER LIPS…

    Even if there’s no one,
    you’ll always have yourself,
    There’s always someone who will look at you and admire you,
    the type of person you are,
    the choices you make,
    even if they feel they are not beneficial at present,
    they shall be in the near future,
    I know that,
    but,
    the world needs to know that too…

    I know you walk alone on paths,
    because you still remember,
    how hard it was to bring yourself up,
    when nothing was going right,
    when you lost the entire world,
    that Wednesday,
    early morning,
    when the entire world was dead asleep,
    you know you lost yourself,
    you lost something that mattered to you,
    and was there someone who had your back,
    was there someone who patted your back,
    was there someone who took you in their embrace…?

    That’s why…

    There isn’t going to be anyone,
    and therefore, there shall be a place for no-one…

    (That’s really cruel to anyone who tries to come near you with the right intentions…)

    But,
    who will…?

    Who will indeed..!

  • Someone else for a day…?

    If you could be someone else for a day, who would you be, and why?

    This life has been a downhill slope,

    Oftentimes I wanted to leave it for the best,

    But,

    I was provided this one for a reason that I’m unknown to, till this point of time…

    Maybe I was meant to work hard, in the shadows and provide for those who are around me and try to live within all of those moments that are left within these days…

    That’s what I have been doing since…

    And I hope that I can do it till my last breath…

    The question of being someone else is intriguing, there’s a lot that’s left to explore and providing a perspective would give possible answers to many such questions…

    But,

    Wouldn’t that raise your standards and make your expectations high from what they were supposed to be, how others act/react…

    Planting a seed of thought that makes you think the way you’re treated or the way they act towards your compassion, making you; forcing you to make less efforts because you might think they aren’t paid back in equivalence…

    To answer the question,

    If I could be someone else,

    “No“

    I’d rather spend the day with those who mean more to me than this life,

    I.e. those who make this life worth living, the efforts worth continuing much further…

    Cheers 🥂

    (That’s for thought…)

  • DIY PROJECT

    Describe the most ambitious DIY project you’ve ever taken on!!

    I work fairly by my own hands and most of the time I try to make it work by things available at my disposal..

    But there are times I have to buy things that help me save some time or help me in the long run…

    For example,

    There is this one thing that might be really common,

    It’s changing oil in a car or a bike,

    We used to pay for the service of the bike that I had and were charged a lot of money for changing oil and the markup on the oil they used too…

    So,

    One day I came across the slip, and the markup was huge and the labor charges on top of that…

    I thought,

    What if I could just change the oil myself, And after going through many youtube videos…

    I found someone who had the same bike and saw all of the clips and went to it and tried to change the oil myself…

    Of course there were consequences,

    The plug that stops the oil from coming out broke as it was made of plastic(mistake on my side…)

    And,

    After that,

    I tried to get the right type of oil according to the manufacturers recommendation…

    And it worked,

    The bike was working well…

    And still to this day, it works…

    (I was 15 when I did all of this…)

    Happy DIY…

    Cheers 🥂

  • Just one…?

    What advice would you give to your teenage self?

    Oh soo many,

    Try to get better at studies and enjoy school life too…

    Try to spend more time with the family because later in life you wouldn’t…

    Invest more time in people who care equally about you…

    Try to be more ruthless when making decisions about your life but think about them before taking actions because your words might be engraved in someone’s heart and they will remind you what and how you broke them with your decisions…

    When thinking about starting some connection with someone like making a Friend try to go with them to places and watch how they treat other people,{if they’re aggressive or calm and composed and how they treat people((like waiters and common staff…))}

    Don’t be worried about things in the long run just keep your head down and work with dedication whatever path you choose you will flourish in it…

    There will be a time when things will feel like they are coming for you they’ll feel and sound like the end of you(your existence) but they will pass and you will thrive once again…

    Yet again..

    Cheers 🥂