Stillborn,
our kid was,
Born a month and a half earlier due to complications,
This was third time I was not able to bring our baby into this world…!
Suddenly all her movements stopped,
her kicking too and by the time we reached the hospital and I was on the Operating table,
the worse had already happened…!
They brought her out by operating on my body and reopening the same incision that had healed now,
under anaesthesia I was able to see as they pulled her out and she had no movement or cries;
A smack on the butt didn’t work and they moved her to NICU;
After cleaning me up and suturing me they told me to take rest,
but,
I was worried about her…!
After a few hours I woke up and I heard nothing about her,
all I saw was my husband worried and horrified…!
I feared worst,
and that fear came true;
No lub-dub,
no cries,
no one to call our own;
After spending a few days in the hospital,
I returned home and asked him,
how was she,
and where did you take her…?
He told me she was absolutely gorgeous,
and,
she had your eyes,
a mix of our face leaning towards your feminine tendencies,
and,
She was a little underweight,
but,
other than that she was well…!
We both cried as he described,
what our baby looked like;
Within an hour doctors declared,
and handed her to him,
and told him there was nothing more they could do…!
He took her to our home,
showed her all the pictures that we had together,
and he told her,
how much your mom would have loved to pamper you…!
After which,
we went to the cemetery,
and bought a little coffin,
and asked the support staff to prepare the area;
As he sat there with her,
staring at what would be the last time he’d see her,
the hymns rung around us,
and he placed her in that little coffin;
They sealed it shut and guided him towards the place that would carry her name,
forever;
As he sat there on the ground,
right next to where they were about to lower her,
He stared at that little coffin,
one last time…!
As this would be the last time he’d see her here on this world,
but he knew,
we both will meet her when we leave these bodies and transcend to a world beyond this one;
Husbands pov
She was crying like it was the end of her,
and it made me cry too,
and I asked myself;
Is this all that we have…?
Sadness and a dying hope of having our own child…?
I didn’t bring these words to my mouth,
but,
kept them within me,
as,
it was time to be strong and console her,
and pull her out of the fear,
anger and pain that surrounded her…!
We have to be strong as we have to continue our lives together,
But,
moments like these shake us,
break our spirits and will from the very core…!
But,
we have to continue our roles that we have promised,
and,
A promise is made to the departed,
that we will meet again,
once again…!
Cheers 🥂
Love Waakiye 🤍
Waakiye 