I know I will never be able to meet you,
But I hope this piece of text does…!
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I had a dream where we had a baby,
Our baby…!
It was a girl and she had your honey brown eyes;
You were supposed to return home at six like you usually did,
and,
it was fifteen minutes past five when I saw the the time on the wall clock you brought for our room…!
She was so little and as I picked her up she had a familiar fragrance,
It was yours…!
Her smile reminded me of the time when we used to be happy together;
She had my wheatish color and a skinny body,
unlike yours she had the same structure I had when I was born;
I remember staring at her for a while and taking in all her features—
Until she started crying…!
I distinctly remember feeding her,
As she tugged to my nipple and began drinking,
Meanwhile all I could do was adore how cute,
How beautiful she was;
Or,
Stare at the clock on the wall in front;
Or,
shift on the bed and catch a glimpse of the main door from where you’d walk in…!
It was 5:35 on the clock and I changed my side and she latched onto my other nipple…!
She had little hair on her head and her body was still developing into a healthy one,
As she drank my milk…!
Before I could look up at the clock,
it was 5:45 and she let go of;
I picked her up,
placed her in my arms and gently tapped her back,
So that she would burp…!
I heard a few burps and I knew she was feeling sleepy as i felt her head bobbling;
It was 5:55 and I couldn’t wait anymore,
I know you were about to walk through those doors anytime now;
I looked at her and she was on the brink of falling asleep,
So I put her in the pink cot and began cleaning our bedroom…!
I couldn’t wait anymore as the clock was about to strike 6 and I’d rush to the door,
Open it and would get into your embrace and talk all about my day…!
But,
Before the clock struck six,
It felt like I fell;
I fell from that dreamland back into the reality that I lived in…!
I was back into the room of my rented apartment and the clock was about to strike 6;
Six in the morning as the alarm clock blared for a few seconds and it woke me up from such a pristine dream where I finally found love and affection that I seeked all my life…!
I woke up in that pitch black room;
So far away from my dream that I cried;
I cried for fifteen minutes straight and another alarm set for 6:15 blared again…!
So I woke up,
Walked into the bathroom and stared into the mirror;
Stared and saw who I really was!
I really was “Far”;
Far—
Far away from my dreams,
And,
He was nowhere near me anymore…!
A dream that a girl told me she had about someone who she deeply loved and cared about;
But—
They weren’t able to meet and live this life together; Now they’re ways apart from each other;
All that remains is hope,
A hope that continues to live in this dreamland and takes her back to the times where they were truly in love…!
Love Waakiye 🤍