Waakiye

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  • To experiences that shape us…

    To experiences that shape us…

    Have you ever performed on stage or given a speech?

    Hey…

    I hope all of you are doing well…

    Yes, I’ve had a few opportunities to present myself on stage with and without a group;

    I presented a speech all alone twice and I had all of the fear before it, legs feeling like jelly, those eyes staring at me like I owe them something, but once in my zone I performed what I had to it was a speech about a religious leader the topic that I picked way back…

    Another one was a rather small group that worked in an informal setting a few strangers and a piece of information that we shared and debated it to come to a standard conclusion,;

    A mere two person discussion turned into a few people taking their side and my side, it was a topic that has such a deep belief that we all had views on it “God’s existence and his overlooking those who were unfortunate…”

    And after the heat of discussion subsided we all had tea and called it a night as we walked away a bit better person, by learning someone’s side and some facts that even changed our beliefs…

    There were instances that we had musical performances during schooling too, which were often in groups because they shifted the focus and stress from a single child to the group, which was fun and enjoyable even for the audience because they were a part of us too as they enjoyed it as much as us…

    A few instances but they shaped a version that can be traced deviated from a standard path to what it is now expanding forever…

    To experiences like these that shape us for the better;

    Cheers 🥂

    Love Waakiye 🤍

  • The stress associated after work…

    The stress associated after work…

    What part of your routine do you always try to skip if you can?

    Hey…

    I hope all of you are doing well…

    The part of routine that I can avoid or skip would be the stress associated with work that constantly looms over my head…

    The constant pressure of preparing, of being active and on my toes has broken the foundation that I stand on;

    Some days it feels like a break from it would be better,

    But returning to it feels like a trap that I exited for a little while,

    after seeing clear open skies I have to walk into the cage to be trapped yet again and work within these tubes that trap my existence within them for 10 hours daily…

    Cheers 🥂

    Love Waakiye 🤍

  • Some laughters and life lessons worth hearing…

    Some laughters and life lessons worth hearing…

    What podcasts are you listening to?

    Hey…

    I hope all of you are doing well…

    Well there aren’t many podcasts that I’m in these days but there are a few that bless my ears…

    One of the podcasts that I used to listen to was “Violating community guidelines” by Sarah Schauer and Brittany Broski;

    I know weird names but they complimented each other and the funny instances on their podcasts were so hilarious that I often laughed out while working making people think that I’ve gone crazy 🤪..

    48 episodes discussing the trends on the social media and what went on during the year 2022 and the end of it,

    Started in January of ‘22 ending in December of the same year, Ive found myself to go back to it year after year and boost my mood and give me laugh whenever life pins me down…

    These days I’m invested in a podcast called Alan watts daily wisdom and yes they’re sharing the timeless teachings of the philosopher Alan watts through ai in his voice to all the world to listen and view too…

    Started a month ago and 24 videos in gathering a whopping 108k followers as we speak (on yt) I’ve found it very helpful and informative by giving me insight to live this life better in ways that are often overlooked…

    Hope you will find these worth your while…

    Cheers 🥂

    Love Waakiye 🤍

  • Life saving advices to cut screen time…

    Life saving advices to cut screen time…

    How do you manage screen time for yourself?

    Hey…

    I hope all of you are doing well…

    I’m pretty sure most of the world is suffering with this disease of a very long screen time, hooked on Instagram reels, YouTube shorts and videos, clips on TikTok and many more…

    Time seem to pass by so quickly when we are hooked on them that it feels unreal;

    You started watching them at 10 at night and suddenly it’s 1:30 before you can see the time on the phone which was there all the time…

    There are a lot of things that I use to achieve my goal of reducing screen time a few of them are->

    • Having a separate phone for doing writing without any distractions so that I can focus when otherwise I would find a way to stop writing and doom-scroll Instagram..
    • Tracking screen time on both my phones just to keep in touch with how much I used a single app and how much I need to cut back…
    • Presetting a timer on each app which I use a lot for example I set a timer for an hour on Instagram which is a lot less from 4-5 hours which used to happen without knowing…
    • Trying to avoid using phones for the first few hours I usually wake up and pen my ideas or any dreams that I had, which makes all of it interesting as it boosts my writing skills and also imaginative skills which help me remember what happened in my dream world…
    • And at last, I keep my phones a bit away from me like for charging away from me when I have free time so I’d have to walk to it to get it as I’m on my bed, which cuts the interest in getting up and grabbing it a bit more…

    The last one is a big mind thing I know…😭😂

    And I hope these works for someone in need…

    Cheers 🥂

    Love Waakiye 🤍

  • On the brink of extinction, the human nature

    On the brink of extinction, the human nature

    What will your life be like in three years?

    Hey…

    I hope all of you are doing well…

    With times uncertain as they are right now some days I really think is there any chance of survival for us as humans in the next couple of years…

    With Ai at the brink of an explosion which gives it power to compute much beyond humans (its super intelligent form),

    Which would mean a lot of our our jobs will be taken over and we will have to find other means and sources to make do what we are doing or love…

    The texts that you and I read and write; for them a lot of Ai tools has come to refine them or make them better which means that in coming years too a lot of content that you will read will either be a part of Ai or wholly made by Ai;

    What will happen once everything that is made has no connection to humans whatsoever…?

    A fearful scenario to think about but it’s not that far into the future maybe within the five year mark…?

    Fear inducing thought…!

    Cheers (To all our survival) 🥂

    Love Waakiye 🤍

  • Failed attempts at remembering my childhood…

    Failed attempts at remembering my childhood…

    Is there an age or year of your life you would re-live?

    Hi…

    I hope all of you are doing well…

    (I hope Halloween went for all those who celebrated..)

    I’d love to live a specific age in my life once again, well tbh I’m not that old yet but there’s an age which I’d like to return once and live my life to the fullest…

    It would be my childhood i.e. the age when I was between 6 years to 12 years, because I see people remember their childhood,

    but I really have no clue as to what my childhood was or what were my quirks or things that I used to do…

    I’ve seen people remember their childhood with photos and memories, but it’s all a hazy flashbacks for me, every once in a while someone will ask how my childhood was and I’d remember bits and pieces of it nothing more ;(

    I know it might feel sad to hear, but when you actively fight for survival after being the sole earner, things tend to fall apart real soon…

    Every once in a while someone in my family will say do you remember that (A core memory from my childhood)..?

    I’d shake my head and agree with them even if they lie through their teeth, because I have little to no recollection of what happened back then…

    It’s sad and disappointing but that’s how it is for me, so I’d like to live my childhood once again…

    Cheers (To some dreams that might come true in the near future) 🥂

    Love Waakiye🤍

  • The dreaded partition of 1947

    The dreaded partition of 1947

    What historical event fascinates you the most?

    Hi…

    I hope all of you are doing well…

    There’s so much fascinating things that happened in our past that piques my interest, but if I were to point out a single one of them it would definitely be partition of my country INDIA…

    Aftermath of that are still faced to this day, I’ve seen people without purpose and reason just existing on this side and on the other side too, sometimes all one does is question themselves are they born on the right side…?

    Being from a family whose ancestors travelled from what is now Pakistan and settled here in India a sense of love and friendship still exists somewhere in this heart of ours, even though a lot of bloodshed happened in retaliation of which we also picked arms and caused harm of equal or more intensity…

    Imagine leaving your friends, your ancestral home, your neighbours, your world behind and travelling beyond the line that was etched onto a map and now enforced by setting up boundaries and on it army personnel letting you pass only after checking…

    It was chaos, there was so much loss and the place that my ancestors settled was covered in grass that was as high as knees length which contained mutilated body parts of the people who resided here before us who became victim of the violence that took place which uprooted them from the very place that they settled in to raise their young ones…

    It was such a horrific incident that the survivors still tell us the tales of the horrors they saw from their very two eyes and all of it plays in their mind like it happened last night…

    A truly horrible happening that shaped our very core, fascinating all those who decide to step into this thought of process and try to feel how they must have endured it all…

    Cheers(to those who live to tell this tale to us)

    Love Waakiye 🤍

  • Chaos to Clarity: My Writing Journey and Productivity

    Daily writing prompt
    When do you feel most productive?
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    Hey

    I hope you all are doing well…!

    The prompt of this day,
    forced me to think the duality of the life I am living…

    One where I manage and run a business,
    another one where I do all of this writing,
    it has been a chaotic mix of feeling thing and tirelessly working my b|_|tt off..

    All of us know that living two lives within these 24 hours isn’t possible but we all have to manage right…?

    The most productive I am during work is the afternoon hours,
    i.e. 12 pm to 3 pm,
    but,
    it’s the exact opposite for this writing between 12 am to 3 am;(IST)

    Waking up early to set things in order,
    and then working on them including this blog,
    and Instagram post before I have to leave for work,
    the fine line between night and day blemishes,
    and for weeks it feels like I haven’t taken a day off,
    but,
    the show must go on…

    So,
    I think you get a gist of the type of broken schedule I live on,
    necessarily the dependent on caffeine is hard and takes a toll on this mind and body too…

    But,
    both parts of my life requires different strengths,
    different capabilities,
    very drastic shifts in focus,
    and,
    with that I need to have a very cool, calm and a composed mind…

    But,
    from the chaos that I’m in,
    generates a world so vivid and well versed,
    that it feels almost surreal..

    And,
    this is the type of blessing I seeked all along,
    to live a vivid, beautiful life with,
    hard work too so i can get a good nights sleep…

    Cheers 🥂

    Love Waakiye 🤍

    That’s how I am staring at nothingness some of these days…

  • How I Conquered My Nerves at a Theatrical Play

    What makes you nervous?

    Even though I’m quite a reserved person,
    there are some things that give birth to nervousness within me….

    Being the person that I am,
    I’m not that open to new experiences and if I want to experience new ones,
    it feels like my mind already has planned all of the outcomes even before I am to undergo the “Said” experience…

    For example;

    I once went to a theatrical play and I was running late,
    I had a fixed seat which I booked a few weeks in advance.

    On reaching there a little late,
    the host had already opened with the introductions.

    …….

    As I entered and looked for my seat and saw someone else sitting in mine,
    on telling them this was my seat,

    He told me he had a seat in the middle somewhere which he booked outside the hall,
    can I take that one..?

    On telling him that I couldn’t
    because I booked this seat weeks prior and I will sit here;

    Nervousness creeped in
    as he didn’t get up even after asking politely,
    and after that in a stern voice,
    after a few moments the staff came in as he stated to raise his voice against me.

    Knowing this was a public place,
    and they reserved the right for our admission,
    as I showed them the ticket and he was politely told to go to his seat,
    which he refused.

    On pausing the play for a moment all the lights were lit,
    and the said person was told to move to his seat or to be escorted out of the venue by security.

    The smug look on his face now wiped clean as he murmured something in his mouth and squeezed himself to his seat in the middle..

    That thing made me quite nervous.

    But thankfully I booked in advance and the staff were really helpful…!

    Overall,
    A good day that was.

    Apart from me losing my sh|t there.

    Cheers 🥂

    Love Waakiye

    The first pic I took as I reached the destination after transversing through roads that were small and had a great abyss on the other side; the hazy memories of those times stay just like these pictures in my mind!!!

  • Understanding Grief: A Personal Narrative of Unexpected Loss

    Daily writing prompt
    Jot down the first thing that comes to your mind.
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    A PLUG THAT WILL BE PULLED TOMORROW…

    Hi,

    I know this isn’t something to be said just like that,
    but this is something that I wrote in my notes app when I heard this news…

    A relative in my family met with an accident as they were driving to a place away from their home and they met with an accident,
    the husband and their adopted child escaped with minor injuries,
    but,
    the wife she fell and hit her head directly on the pavement,
    there was massive b;eeding,
    and in shock everyone was…

    Then began the trips to hospitals,
    they took her to the nearest one,
    they gave the initial attention and recommended her to another one and another one to another…

    After finding a good doctor(extremely rare),
    he told us(un-officially) that we should take her to a hospital that’s nearest to their home,
    and they did,
    because losing someone away from home isn’t something that noone would ever ask for…

    After keeping her in a hospital we got the news that she had a blood clot in her brain and some fragments of the bone of her skull punctured into the brain;
    overnight surgery was the go to for having any hopes of saving her and after that she was put on ventilator for the rest of her time…

    After being given a timeline of maybe a week, maybe a month, maybe an year,
    just after 10 days we were told that there’s no more life in that body,
    all the chaos that rolled down after that,
    the fight with doctors and staff,
    removing the ventilator,
    her breathing her last as the plug was pulled,
    remaining was the empty bag of flesh and bones…

    After bringing her lifeless body back home,
    and preparing all the things necessary for the rituals,
    all until the pyres were engulfed with flames and her remains reduced to ashes….

    Thats how life has been,
    i haven’t been able to think straight,
    after witnessing a second one this month…

    He||,
    literal He|| of a month…

    But,
    the world goes on…

    We wish for her journey ahead to be an easy and blessed one

    In a disarray we all were, until we were given the news, now like these flowers once full of life, they lay down, to be a part of the cycle once again,just like we all shall one day….