Tag: worried

  • How I Conquered My Nerves at a Theatrical Play

    What makes you nervous?

    Even though I’m quite a reserved person,
    there are some things that give birth to nervousness within me….

    Being the person that I am,
    I’m not that open to new experiences and if I want to experience new ones,
    it feels like my mind already has planned all of the outcomes even before I am to undergo the “Said” experience…

    For example;

    I once went to a theatrical play and I was running late,
    I had a fixed seat which I booked a few weeks in advance.

    On reaching there a little late,
    the host had already opened with the introductions.

    …….

    As I entered and looked for my seat and saw someone else sitting in mine,
    on telling them this was my seat,

    He told me he had a seat in the middle somewhere which he booked outside the hall,
    can I take that one..?

    On telling him that I couldn’t
    because I booked this seat weeks prior and I will sit here;

    Nervousness creeped in
    as he didn’t get up even after asking politely,
    and after that in a stern voice,
    after a few moments the staff came in as he stated to raise his voice against me.

    Knowing this was a public place,
    and they reserved the right for our admission,
    as I showed them the ticket and he was politely told to go to his seat,
    which he refused.

    On pausing the play for a moment all the lights were lit,
    and the said person was told to move to his seat or to be escorted out of the venue by security.

    The smug look on his face now wiped clean as he murmured something in his mouth and squeezed himself to his seat in the middle..

    That thing made me quite nervous.

    But thankfully I booked in advance and the staff were really helpful…!

    Overall,
    A good day that was.

    Apart from me losing my sh|t there.

    Cheers 🥂

    Love Waakiye

    The first pic I took as I reached the destination after transversing through roads that were small and had a great abyss on the other side; the hazy memories of those times stay just like these pictures in my mind!!!
  • Understanding Grief: A Personal Narrative of Unexpected Loss

    Daily writing prompt
    Jot down the first thing that comes to your mind.

    A PLUG THAT WILL BE PULLED TOMORROW…

    Hi,

    I know this isn’t something to be said just like that,
    but this is something that I wrote in my notes app when I heard this news…

    A relative in my family met with an accident as they were driving to a place away from their home and they met with an accident,
    the husband and their adopted child escaped with minor injuries,
    but,
    the wife she fell and hit her head directly on the pavement,
    there was massive b;eeding,
    and in shock everyone was…

    Then began the trips to hospitals,
    they took her to the nearest one,
    they gave the initial attention and recommended her to another one and another one to another…

    After finding a good doctor(extremely rare),
    he told us(un-officially) that we should take her to a hospital that’s nearest to their home,
    and they did,
    because losing someone away from home isn’t something that noone would ever ask for…

    After keeping her in a hospital we got the news that she had a blood clot in her brain and some fragments of the bone of her skull punctured into the brain;
    overnight surgery was the go to for having any hopes of saving her and after that she was put on ventilator for the rest of her time…

    After being given a timeline of maybe a week, maybe a month, maybe an year,
    just after 10 days we were told that there’s no more life in that body,
    all the chaos that rolled down after that,
    the fight with doctors and staff,
    removing the ventilator,
    her breathing her last as the plug was pulled,
    remaining was the empty bag of flesh and bones…

    After bringing her lifeless body back home,
    and preparing all the things necessary for the rituals,
    all until the pyres were engulfed with flames and her remains reduced to ashes….

    Thats how life has been,
    i haven’t been able to think straight,
    after witnessing a second one this month…

    He||,
    literal He|| of a month…

    But,
    the world goes on…

    We wish for her journey ahead to be an easy and blessed one

    In a disarray we all were, until we were given the news, now like these flowers once full of life, they lay down, to be a part of the cycle once again,just like we all shall one day….
  • HIS WORLD THROUGH HER LIPS…

    Even if there’s no one,
    you’ll always have yourself,
    There’s always someone who will look at you and admire you,
    the type of person you are,
    the choices you make,
    even if they feel they are not beneficial at present,
    they shall be in the near future,
    I know that,
    but,
    the world needs to know that too…

    I know you walk alone on paths,
    because you still remember,
    how hard it was to bring yourself up,
    when nothing was going right,
    when you lost the entire world,
    that Wednesday,
    early morning,
    when the entire world was dead asleep,
    you know you lost yourself,
    you lost something that mattered to you,
    and was there someone who had your back,
    was there someone who patted your back,
    was there someone who took you in their embrace…?

    That’s why…

    There isn’t going to be anyone,
    and therefore, there shall be a place for no-one…

    (That’s really cruel to anyone who tries to come near you with the right intentions…)

    But,
    who will…?

    Who will indeed..!