I’d like to begin this prompt by telling you all that the habit of me having these vivid dreams come fron my mom;
Because in a span of a few weeks she told me a few dream that she had;
DREAM 1
One was last week in which she was handed a pouch that had gold bars and coins and was told to deliver it to a person with a specific name;
And on finding that person after a lot of turmoil,
That person says to give it to the fishes;
Literal fishes in a pond….
😂
But she instead of giving it,
Keeps the pouch and the valuables within and becomes paranoid until she wakes up…!
Dream2
Today she told me a dream that a person came in between her and my father and caused a divorce on the word of his mouth;
Later it turned out to be he wanted his sister to be married to my now late father;
And how everything unfolds and many characters of our family come in and intervene;
The conclusion is that my father who works in corporate world keeps my mom to work in the office where he stays all day and only returns to home at night,
And he promises to take care of us(both his son and daughter…)…!
A happy yet sad conclusion…!
Coming back to the prompt
Most influential teacher and the reasoning…
There’s a person and an abstract thing that I would give this title to…
The first one would be my English teacher from my high school and specifically who is now a principal of the same school because of her prowess and the control that she has on the language and her ability to filter and find out people who are expert…!
Any love that exists within this mind and heart for the language happens to be just because of her…!
Her classes were something that I miss,
Even after 10 years;
So much interactive and
They were so easy to grab and latch myself onto,
Which deepened my love for the language,
That they stay etched into my very core…!
In an abstract sense;
Failure would be the most influential teacher,
Because it taught me to be consistent with my effort and walk with my head high until I was destined to achieve what I had in my mind…!
There are times when nothing works and I feel like I’m falling back into my old habits;
And when that happens I take some time off,
Grab what my mind wants to do,
Often times its something of a bad post or something that is gruesome that I pen down and put that thing back in my notes app…!
This has happened a few times and I feel a sense of clarity after getting my head clear of all the negative thoughts and feelings…!
And I build myself right back up the next day…!
Like nothing happened…!
At the end,
Failure has taught me and given me power to get up yet again and conquer the next obstacle each day, everyday…!
I just came back from a bird hospital that exists nearby;
Guess what we rescued…!
A little baby pigeon
One of the street dogs, who’s timid and almost a year old was carrying it in its mouth like it won a prize;
After showing the street dog a treat;
Greed overcame and dropped it from the mouth and ran for it in the other direction;
After grabbing the pigeon with my hands I brought it into my home,
Grabbed my sister and took it to the bird hospital that is situated on the east park road, Karol Bagh, New Delhi…
After getting an initial assessment and being made aware of its weakened state;
The lack of hydration and food turned out to be the culprit…!
After dropping it off and driving back home it’s almost 9 and most of my morning walk time was almost over…!
🥲🥲🥲
Coming back to the prompt
Something I wish I could do more everyday…!
I think you already know the answer but I’d like to add a few things;
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Like having more hours each day;
But something like that wouldn’t be possible and it would be a chaos on its own and its repercussions on all other things that happen during the day…;
I wish I could be of more help to those who are in need,
Not animals per se,
But,
Helping other fellow humans who are in need and aren’t fortunate enough….!
I wish to tend to this garden that is on my terrace with my own hand which I do on my days off,
But on the regular,
I water them on the alternate days only…!
At the end,
I’d like to be closer to my own self and have enough time to write and pen things which help me in the long run by giving me perspective on life and all of its avenues…!
In Crux I’d like to be a but more selfless,
And focus outward that gives me more things to think and do…!
What about you…?
What is it that you want to do more of each day…?
Cheers 🥂
Love Waakiye 🤍
Another rescue that was dropped by another kind human waiting for its turn…!
I love people who help those who cannot speak and tell about their pains and suffering through words…!
What tattoo do you want and where would you put it?
Hey…
I hope all of you are doing well…
Making this late night post made me realise what happens when you don’t have a clear headspace to work things out in the morning and the stress of it spills all over the day and haunt you till the night…!
Well,
As I’m about to fall asleep,
And, I can’t control the rate at with the yawns are coming to me now;
For the time being I am about to fall asleep and let me quickly get back to the—
Prompt of the day…!
Tattoo I’d like to get and the special place for it…?
There are two things that I love about tattoos,
Their permanence and a fact that it shows, how committed you can be to a certain thing,
Well,
Certain enough to be poked by those needle that moves two and fro so fast that it looks like it’s moving at supersonic speeds…!
But,
It’s all fun and games when you are in the company of your friends and all of them plan to get one and there you are stuck deciding do you want to get one,
Or
Do you have any real friends,
Or did you make any mistake in choosing your friends…?
Well,
My first tattoo would either be the initials,
“SMG”
Which is a famous trio of three people and those who know them—
Know them…
And they also know that sort of a tattoo im talking about…
The perfect place would be the back of the hand….
The other one would be shared by two,
The numbers
“143422”
Or,
“LLSMW 🕊️”
Both of them come from a place…
Both of them come from Panjabi artists that have a special place in my heart and probably in the hearts of a lot of people…!
The first one would officially have a deeper meaning;
By a super fast upcoming artist called GAGG-E, and his first ever album named the same 143422;
Whereas the other one signifies the legacy that Sidhu Moosewala carried and still carries to this day;
Well,
Hologram show is something that can be somewhat of a reality within this year with the oncoming of the trailer today…!
And I’d get them on my forearms, facing towards me not on the other side so I can see and remember each time the people who made this life worth living…!
It’s 7:36 in the morning as I’m writing this and Delhi has been blessed with rains after a few hot and humid days;
And the same overcast horizon happens to bless us all today too…!
And this weather brings out a plethora of feeling of that range from love for your significant other and something of a loss that originates from being all alone…!
Well this evening will tell us which side overpowered the other one,
Or maybe it will be a mix of both…?
Who knows—-
Coming back to the prompt
A word that describes me…
After sitting on this one line for half hour and thinking what would be the right word that would describe Waakiye in a single world—
It would be,
Introspective
It has been brought to my attention one two many times, even when I’m writing something small or even long posts;
That it appears to those around me I get cut off from this world;
And go dwell into a world that exist beyond this one…!
Like all of the world exists within this notes app or my trusty notebook…!
And when I tell someone a story or something of a writeup it feels like it was written after being in the shoes of the person no matter which hierarchy the character cones from…!
And often I’ve been told that I dwell too deep into the details and the specifics of it too…
And when that piece is read it reflects the same…!
So,
Being introspective would be the perfect description of who and what I am…!
After spending most of yesterday’s working hours getting the metal pipes changed that bring us water from main water lines which corroded over the years;
I wanted to completely shut down when I came back at our premises at 6 but I got some orders which needed preparations and when that happens we have to stay on our feet and note each and every detail…!
So I reached home around 8 and it was showing on my face because everyone around me asked if I was okay…?!
Did something happen or did someone say anything to me…?
On saying no and sitting next to me and enquiring about my day they assumed it was tiredness and let me rest after telling me to have dinner…!
My mom last left the room and she kissed me on my head and said,
“Where would we go without you beta…?”
And my sister walked in too as she was saying that, without knocking of course,
And,
She sat on the corner of my bed and said,
“May G0d give you everything that you have on your mind and in-turn you give me money…!”
That empty room filled with laughter,
I was reminded the real people who I was grateful for and who I did everything for…!
And in that happy moment I felt a silence a voice missing of the person who will forever stay within our hearts,
Everyone’s hearts who was within that room—
Hope his life ahead is an easier one…!
After saying that in my mind I got ready to have dinner with them…!
(Khair…)
Coming back to the prompt…!
Best compliment I’ve received
Do men ever receive compliments…?
Or,
I have been someone who is so cut off from the world that I don’t remember when it comes to being complimented or remembering a compliment…!
I do remember being told that—
I don’t have the same thinking as the kids of this generation;
They’re abrupt and cut off people in the middle,
And I came to our rescue by saying that,
The new generation knows when to stop and by stopping I mean themselves and others too when they know the conversation will take a wrong turn…!
Another one,
I was told this by an older person when I was travelling by train to my extended family—
I think in a way that’s better than most of the adults that they’ve met…!
And I told them it’s my company and the type of people I surround myself with as a fully functioning adult and my thought process—
But before I could complete the sentence they said—
It gives them a clear picture of how my parents brought me up and taught me well…!
The obsession of older generation to bring the parents of our younger generation into conversation is something that needs to be studied…
But from that they can easily criticise both them and us in a single sweep and some people don’t tolerate that….
“Thank you for bringing my life which I was so scared of infront of the whole world…”
This compliment I received from a girl who I didn’t even meet IRL,
She has a very tragic life story and when she told me everything that went on with her life;
I didn’t tell her that it would be okay or to forget her past,
But,
What I did was asked her to tell me everything about her and what went on and her permission to bring her life infront of others…
I wrote it to the best of my abilities and sent it to the world to view and read and comment and tell how grateful she was to survive a broken family and find her space within it all…!
It’s been some time now that we haven’t talked and I hope she is well…!
And I didn’t do it to her close to her in any way,
Infact as she opened up to me I felt her taking the place of my little sister that I never had…!
I’ll check up on her today as I remember this…!
I’ve been told that—
I write well and I must have published a few books by now—
To which I say that I’m still learning and finding myself in that process and shaping myself in a person that I want to be like who does things on his own accord without being influenced by others…!
If you are here reading this,
You must have read these are the things as compliments but it feels like none of them were a compliment to me—
They felt like subtle things that people notice…!
None,
Not even a single one of them felt to me like a compliment…
Maybe because I have a thick skin or my definition of compliment differ from others…?!
You’re going on a cross-country trip. Airplane, train, bus, car, or bike?
Hey…
—
I hope all of you are doing well…!
—
After waking up at 7:30 and wanting to stay a bit more in my bed made me realise it’s almost 8;
I got up and changed my clothes and went out on my walk after my morning routine..!
—
It’s currently 8:05 in the morning as I’m writing this one…!
—
I’m really thinking what is there to talk about and what happened yesterday…!
In the evening,
I really wanted to have a drink as I stared at those bottles for in my cabinet;
—
Well,
Those glass bottles remind me of happy times that I spent with people around me,
But;
They also make me realise those night I spent drinking all alone,
And drinking until I couldn’t and then going to sleep…!
Both the positives and negatives of drinking(heavy emphasis on the negatives…)
Well you’re socialising,
I know,
But it harms,
Even a drop harms when it comes to your body…!
—
In that case the mind wants more and more each time…!
—
The glass is empty and your friend’s isn’t,
He’ll pour you another one…
A dangerous cycle it becomes…!
(Khair…)
It’s better to quit when you can,
Before all of the bills pile up and you are spending your days in recovery…!
—
Beware it’s a habit that kills, along with smoking and those hard drugs…
Coming back to the prompt
Cross country trip and my mode of transportation…!
Well,
This prompt critically sums up a problem within that isn’t visible on the surface…
It’s your opinion on how do you value time…?
When travelling by air,
You reduce time spent travelling to mere hours or maximum of 20 hours from wherever you stand…!
—
And when you look at it,
You get the shortest path from one point to other…
But by traveling by air,
You cannot get to know people that you would otherwise on any other mode of transportation..!
—
And even if you consider the person sitting on your left , right or both if you’re sitting in the middle…!
If you’re travelling by train,
You’ll find people from all walks of life,
From bottom to upper class a mix that you won’t find anywhere…!
—
They travel with the same purpose of reaching from point A to point B,
And you can pay more to reach there faster,
But that is at no comparison with travelling by air as it takes significant more hours and days at a time to reach if you want to even travel within the national borders…!
Travelling by bus is a worth if you travel a lot though the night;
Because you can sit in a bus in the evening around 6 and by 6 in the morning you can travel well across national borders,
You can go one/two states over…!
—
Accounting in it maybe an hour or two of stopping for passengers and their wellness…!
Well at last comes travelling by car/bike
Something that I live and have immense love for…!
—
You can travel at your pace,
Absorbing everything that comes with it…
By meeting new people and comeing across avenues of life that weren’t possible travelling any other way…
—
Because if you see a picturesque scene,
You can just stop,
Jump out of your car or off your bike absorbing everything that exists and maybe take a few pictures as a keepsake…!
—
Also you meet people who are either going or coming back from the place that you want to go…
—
You can travel at your pace and return as you wish,
A drawback that it’s the slowest form of travel and takes more than hours and days, weeks if you plan on travelling cross borders(plural borders…!)
How to save travel time is essentially the question here…!
And how you value your time differs from person to person..!
—
If you want to travel fast and reach quicker travelling by air is you go to,
All other options are considerably less when compared to airway but with their own pros and cons…!
If I had a chance I would travel cross borders on my car,
If I can get my hands on such free and open time in my tightly packed schedule;
Along with the money to afford visas and regular maintenance of the ride and those who are tagging along with me,
This day started at 6:43 for me as I forgot to put my tab, laptop, phones and power banks on charging and I spent doing my morning routine of freshening up while putting all of my devices on charge and then I decided to follow my routine of morning walks…!
It’s currently 7:16 in the morning and I’m blessed to have woken up to live another day…!
I really want to tell you all something…;
After talking about how I cope with my negetive feelings in yesterday’s prompt,
I began to be considerate towards the things I mentioned in it with care and much attention,
Like how much they saved my life instead of thinking they were just a part of this life..!
And,
I genuinely felt happy after a long time,
Thinking about how grateful I was for this life…!
I say that because a few people,
Genuine people who are a great part of my life told me that I seem happy and I should keep on doing what I did…
And to my astonishment I don’t know what it was until I started to think about this as I’m writing…!
A sense of security came with that thought and how i acknowledged the things which helped me get through my sad times…!
Coming back to the prompt
Most confident person I know…
I think all of us are confident enough at some aspect of our life—
Imagine thinking about
A Small Business Owner or
A Music Producer or
A CEO of a large MNC
Or
A Singer,
Or a Writer
(Just like you and me…)
All of them are in a position that requires a high level of confidence and certainty in their skill…
Do you think any of this would’ve been possible without taking risks and trusting ourselves with our initial abilities and skills—
on top of that having confidence to start everything of which we once possessed a figment of…!?
And now that all of us are in a position above others,
I look back at my past and think,
What was it that started all of this…?
Was it the love for the language,?
Or
Was it a need to talk to someone when there was none…?
Or
Was it a blessing that I earned from my teachers back in high school for being attentive enough in my English classes…!
Only fate knows what it has planned ahead for it all…
But,
If you look at it from a third person’s point of view,
Imagine someone who thinks you have a good prowess of the language English;
And for them,
You are a big source of confidence and they might take a good skill from you if they are around you…!
Even if it’s not your first, second—
maybe the third language…!
But the fact that you can talk and write in a language that they lack at;
They might look at you like you are the epitome of confidence and someone they aspire to be like…!
And,
If we are in your shoes,
Maybe you work in corporate world,
And
There is a boss that you look upto,
Who you want to be like;
You like how they carry themselves,
When they talk it feels like a free flow of information that is easy to grab…!
And when they speak to you in a quiet setting it feels like a personal win,
Even shadowing someone like that feels you are gaining some momentum from them which makes you feel that you can reach their level someday…!
And if you get into that bosses shoes,
They might have someone they look upto for something that gives them a chance to grow even more…
Now,
Consider yourself in that child’s shoes,
That employee’s shoes or that boss’s shoes…!
When looked up from their pov,
There is something that we have to learn from each of them;
It’s the matter of perspective when it comes to confidence and a confident person…!
A crook might look upto the underboss to learn skills and his confidence to execute someone or do things that are illegal with such ease that it might feel unbelievable…!
No matter where you look,
There’s something to learn and someone to look upto,
Someone to be like,
Someone’s confidence becomes a bar that one wants to cross…!
Unknown to the fact that there might be someone looking up to them and want to be like…!
What strategies do you use to cope with negative feelings?
Hey…!
I hope all of you are doing well…!
I came here early as it’s 6 in the morning and Delhi is receiving rain…?
In the middle of march…?
I got up and pushed our clothes stand indoors, which was chilling in the balcony;
And Mithu , our pet indie dog started barking and howling at the cloth stand that we have…!
It’s now 7 am and it’s still showering;
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I don’t know what is going on anymore…!
After scrolling some reels I’m on my terrace as soon as the rain went away…!
It’s now 8:18…
And the weather is soo beautiful,
A blue grey sky and our Indian flag in my line of sight…!
The cool breeze that is blowing occasionally makes it even more mesmerising…!
I was almost positive that I wouldn’t be able to go on my morning walk because of the occasional shower but this rain has cleared a lot of dust and brings out the vibrant colors around me;
Which makes me happy…!
Flowers of kadi patta plant…!
Walking right into our prompt
Things I do to cope with negative feelings…!!!
Well,
One of the things that I do daily to cope with these feelings are go on a walk…!
Well because it all used to start in the morning for me,
So I planned to change it by going on walks and distracting myself from it all,
The first thing in the morning…!
Because I usually pen down things that come on my mind early in the morning and it’s very easy for me to go and doom scroll,
Because it’s a shift from this app to that…!
So to avoid it all and spoil my entire day, I do all of the thinking and writing on my morning walk…!
Listening to music is something that is right up my alley—
When I feel like the world is overwhelming for me I just get away from it all by putting on my headphones on and listen to some soft tunes or focus on my breathing while having some frequency playing which helps me focus and shift away from negative feelings…!
Sit and observe
It might feel unlike me,
But, sometimes when nothing works I just sit still or visit a park or a nursery,
And think about things that are beautiful and tell myself there’s so much to live for;
Yes I tell myself there is so much to live for because sometimes thoughts coincide with each other as they aren’t far from each other…!
Meeting with friends and talking to them
Something that is right up my avenue is talking to my friends and hanging out with with them;
Often they say something that is funny and makes me forget about life and all of its problems,
The very root of my problems seem to fade when I am with them…!
And when that happens It seems I’m the happiest in this whole world…!
Read/Listen something interesting
This is something that happens rarely as I don’t have much time on its own,
But I do have time to listen to podcasts and audio versions of the book which I really want to read but don’t have the time for;
And it brings me real joy when I finish an audiobook or when I get some inspiration to think from a perspective different from mine…!
Well there are things that I used to do but those take us down a bad path,
Like drinking to cope with all of the pain and negative thoughts and ideas…!
And harming yourself to feel something other than sadness;
Like pain…!
But,
I’m really glad that I had the power to pull myself out of that situation thanks to people around me and their continuous support,
To the point it seemed like this life wasn’t worth living,
And I’m glad I made it out of all those time…!
Life is worth living,
Surviving all of the problems that come with it;
So keep your head up,
Look at things around you,
Sniff some flowers if you have to…
Whatever helps you to live and pull yourself away from the negative thoughts it works(not if it harms your life in other ways…)
Well this day started a bit early as I was up at 7 and writing down a dream that I had about someone passing away and the things that happen as soon as we discover it and we call those who are around us and try to begin things according to our traditions…!
It took me 40 minutes to recollect all of the information and write;
And after penning it all down I got up to go for my morning walk but then my mom came into my room and I told her all the dream and people involved in it…!
And she told me something like that happening in real life and how she saw living proofs of it may time and then the conversation drifted off to a different topic—
Here I am,
Writing this all at 8:21 in the morning and the sunlight is blessing us all…!
Well it’s a common occurrence for me now as I have been penning all of my dream(which I remember…)
As soon as I wake up I grab my phone,
And not scroll anything,
I just open my notes or journal app and pen what I remember in a fast and quick manner and I skip all of the mistakes—
Which I correct later when I am proofreading or I have to upload it somewhere…!
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I will try my level best to give you a proof this evening about a dream that I had somewhere along this life…!
Coming back to the prompt…
Activities I lose myself in…
I know these times are very difficult;
Once we keep in our perspective attention span of people and how it has deteriorated compared to previous years—
—
When we look at people walking by and they are looking into those screens;
We get into a painful realisation,
That the childhood that we spent once playing,
Getting hurt,
Crying,
Learning to get up yet again and doing it all over—-
Those times are over and everything happens over calls or video calls now;
Or—
You didn’t remember carrying your power bank and the battery in your phone died that’s why you are looking at things around you now…! 😂
But;
A painful realisation comes in,
The devices have controlled us more than we imagine;
They came in these big boxes, those bulky monitors and that cpu unit we once had—
But these days the phones and laptops have turned each and every thing into a something that you can carry everywhere and do everything on the go…!
Well,
For me it’s the same and a bit different simultaneously;
You know you read all of the above 12 maybe 13 lines because I love to lose myself within these words…!
As I begin to think and write about something by dwelling into a world that exists within mind;
And simultaneously trying to explore the readers mind and coming up with some things that might be common with both of ours….!
Another one would be work,
Because I’ve developed love for it over the years,
And the day feels unfulfilling until a major chunk of work isn’t completed;
Well not all days are the same and some days I return home with this unaccomplished feeling that’s hard to shake off—
And when that happens,
There’s nothing more worse than that;
Until I go next day and come back home with a sense of accomplishment…!
Other than those two I love to listen to music and lose myself within that moment…
And love would be an understatement because if it were possible I’d keep an headphone in my ears all the time and not worry about my hearing at all…!
Well this one couldn’t have come at a bad time because I do have my earphones in…!
Well,
It takes me to a world that exists beyond this one as I listen to a wide range going from classical to new school;
Folk to rap,
From Fairuz to Nusrat Fateh Ali khan to Sidhu Moosewala(LLSMW 🕊️)…
It takes me to a world beyond this one and makes me exposes me to their pov and their mindset…!
And if you are still here reading this after-all,
I cannot tell you how we lose ourselves in the arms of our loved ones…
There is nothing that is more soothing than being in the arms of someone who loves you for who you are and time flies away so—
Oh so fast…!
And how the time passed so soon as I’m writing this one—-
Waakiye 