A promise and an obsession…!

How often do you say “no” to things that would interfere with your goals?

Hey…

I hope all of you are doing well…!

After spending last evening feeling bad about something, even I don’t know about;

Maybe it’s the situation that I’m trapped in right now,

Or,

Maybe the pileup of responsibilities that have gotten heavier as each day passes,

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I wrote about the sweet nature of death in hinglish and the circular nature of grief;

Technically about those who were once with you but now they aren’t;

But now they lay flat in the ground or their ashes sit in an urn or maybe the same ashes were put into to a river that is considered holy…!

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The piece waits to scratch something hidden within your heart or a memory waiting to be remembered once again;

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That’s how it felt as I was writing this one;

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Remembering those who have gone far away,

Maybe they have taken birth into this world again or they’re free from the cycle;

Maybe this evening…

(Please remind me because I’ve become more forgetful…)

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Coming back to the prompt…

Saying “No” when my goals are at stake…!

It might not seem like it but,

When things come to my dreams and my goals I quit everything that is around me…!

I turn away from things no matter how important it might be,

I just up and walk in the general direction that leads me to the place that demand my attention…!

Even if it means taking myself away from the short term things that help me survive daily…!

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One of those is my business,

For its betterment I’ve given up practically my whole life and not pursue my college education,

Only because of a person who isn’t there with us anymore,

But,

A promise made to that person stays with me,

Maybe he’s watching me from afar,

And thinking to himself that,

He is still working each day and is keeping his word…!

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So, for a promise and a dream that we took together,

A son still works even when he doesn’t want to…!

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Other one is writing

For this,

All of this, for this penmanship I’ve been to places that are dingiest ones I’ve seen—

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I’ve been to places that you wouldn’t otherwise even think of going physically and mentally…!

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Fixated on things for weeks at a single span and when something fruitful comes out of it;

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It’s for the world to enjoy as much as it was for me to write…

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I’ve said no to loved ones in the past for leaving me behind to come up with things that I never regret….!

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It would make you think that there isn’t much that I have to survive,

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A medley of these two things;

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And just like that,

I’ve found a reason to live,

A reason to survive each day;

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A promise to someone and an obsession that keeps me functioning…!

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Cheers 🥂

Love Waakiye 🤍