What is this rage that I feel these bursts of…?


It feels like I’m going to burst out of my skin ,
If I don’t do something about it;

And,
If I decide to act upon it someday,
It will either be the end of a person,
Or
End of me in an essence…!

After spending a good amount of my time waiting for a product
or
even something that I was promised and it doesn’t happen;

It feels like I’m going to
blow up and burst in a fit of anger…!

I’m meeting them after sacrificing my precious time,
and I hope their’s is too;

Out of nowhere comes this delay of their arrival,
Something that they promised in the first place,
and to be there before me too;

And now;
When they don't stand on their word——

There comes a sudden burst of anger,
an uncontrollable one,
That makes me feel that I have less worth,
and pushes me to get up and walk away from this meet-up…!

I try to tell myself that they might be stuck somewhere,
but,
Another voice tells me that,
”They live here in this city and they must be aware of the time it takes and the place they chose,
maybe it gets congested,

Plus,
Being wary of it,
they should have left earlier…!”

After having this bout with myself,
or
this voice of mine;

I come to a conclusion to wait,
and they appear infront of me,
as I’m waiting there;

And when they arrive,
on seeing them all of the voices fade and a feeling of happiness takes over me;

Maybe it’s some evil from within that tries to push me in a wrong direction away from people and their company,
Wants me to rot in my room all alone;

But,
Not trusting it for a while
Enduring it for a little while,
it makes all of it worth it;

A message from this heart to yours…!

Cheers 🥂

Love Waakiye 🤍

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